I'm less depressed, more manic

So you may have noticed that I haven't posted a lot about my current mental health lately. I was afraid to post something until now in fear that I was going to jinx myself... but I'm about 99% sure that I've left the severe depression that I've been in for a very very long time.

Actually to correct myself, my bipolar disorder has left the depression part of the cycle. My borderline personality

Traits of people with personality disorders

Last week on the Out of the FOG website, I discovered a list of 100 common behavior patterns for people suffering from personality disorders. I guess it was interesting to me because it spells out things more than the DSM explanations of personality disorders. Mentally, I was checking things off the list that I do/have as I was reading it. I don't think I'll share the number of traits that fit me

Football player Brandon Marshall diagnosed with borderline personality disorder

Dolphins receiver says proper diagnosis and treatment for a psychological disorder saved his life



 By Omar Kelly, Sun Sentinel

Brandon Marshall has been holed up in the theater room of his new Southwest Ranches home for the better part of five days.

The home is grand and gorgeous, but the theater room is the world's loneliest. Even its sole occupant is unable to see himself.

He has been

Did Amy Winehouse have Borderline Personality Disorder?

By International Business Times

While the cause of Amy Winehouse's death is yet to be explained, the British singer is known for having long battled with alcohol and drug addiction.

Overall, Borderline Personality Disorder could have undermined her life that was tragically shortened to 27 years.

Amy Winehouse was found dead in her London flat on Saturday. Police have not identified the cause

Personality disorders category likely to be revised for next psychiatry textbook

By Los Angeles Times

LOS ANGELES — Several types of personality disorders will be dropped from the next edition of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. But one disorder previously proposed for elimination — narcissistic personality disorder — will likely remain in the text.

The American Psychiatric Association announced Thursday that the framework for personality disorders

Two borderline poems

I wrote these little poems in the middle of the night last night to explain how I am feeling when it comes to how bad the borderline is right now.


"Who?"

Am I me?
Am I her?
Am I who you want me to be?
I can barely remember
Who I am supposed to be today.
I'm here.
She's here.
But who's in charge?
Who is it that everyone
Is supposed to see?
It surely isn't really me.
She's better.
I am worse.
I

I hate being borderline

No matter how hard I try to fight my urges to give into the borderline personality disorder tendencies, I seem to be screwing up something somehow. I swear no matter what I do, the borderline is still there. Some days it's worse than others. Tonight, it's bad. Last night, it was bad. I just want peace in my head. I want to stop screwing things up. I hate being borderline

Marsha M. Linehan talks about her struggles

By New York Times News Service

HARTFORD, Conn. — Are you one of us?

The patient wanted to know, and her therapist — Marsha M. Linehan of the University of Washington, creator of a treatment used worldwide for severely suicidal people — had a ready answer. It was the one she always used to cut the question short, whether a patient asked it hopefully, accusingly or knowingly, having glimpsed the

I quit the group "therapy"

I quit the domestic violence group "therapy." I didn't see a point to going to it. The group leader was so bad and disrespectful. When people talk, she won't even pay attention. She was constantly texting, checking the clock, writing down stuff that had nothing to do with the group or what someone was talking about. She allowed three people to dominate all the conversation with everyone else

Why I ended my longest friendship

Sometimes when you want to become a better person, you need to rid your life of the people who are holding you back. Sometimes ending a friendship is healthier than staying in it... when the friendship is toxic.

Two weeks ago, I went to church, and the minister gave a sermon about how you can overcome the "labels" of your past. He kept stressing the point that no matter what people have thought

About to start therapy

Tomorrow I am starting my group therapy, which will be based on recovery from domestic violence and rape. I'm nervous about it. I have been nervous about it for days, well actually weeks. I'm not sure how I am going to feel talking about all the past abuse in my life in front of a large group of people. It's a 16-week program. I am praying that it does more good than harm. Normally I don't

May is BPD / mental health month

Today is May 1st, which means it's the first day of Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month and Mental Health Month. It's also Better Sleep Month. The first week of May is Mental Health Counseling Week. Wednesday will be National Anxiety Disorders Screening Day. May 4th is Childhood Depression Awareness Day, and May 22-28 is Schizophrenia Awareness Week.

When did May become the month

Relapsing into borderline

I haven't talked much on here about it but I've had a relapse of many of my borderline personality disorder symptoms.

I feel pretty ashamed that I let myself get bad again. I know I shouldn't feel ashamed, but I do. I'm really beating myself up over it.

My boyfriend is trying to console me constantly so I don't feel so bad. That ends up with me feeling even worse because I feel like I'm a

It's getting harder just to feel alive

I wish I had some clue about what is happening to me lately. I feel like I'm slipping back into a black hole. I feel like I'm losing my sanity again. I just don't get it. I had started to come out of my depression. I had started to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Everything looked like it was getting better. Then everything came crashing down suddenly. It was seemingly out of the blue.